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First of, from July 2008, Mathematics would just be history for me. I am quitting! Yes, you heard it right. No more PhD! No more Cryptography! No more of these stuffs! In fact, when I go back home, the first thing I'm gonna do is to start a book sale of my Math book collection. I do have some great titles, both real textbooks - some of the GTM series, and Math trivia books, Olympiad collections, and even Math, Crypto-related novels. Everything will be sold for less than half the price in stores. So, don't miss out the opportunity.

Next, I am returning to the P.I. on mid-July. I will be there for a month, to prepare some important documents, and also for the upcoming visit of my bf. Hope everything turns out well, this time. After that, I will come to live with him in Shanghai. Hurray!! So, I am really keeping my fingers cross that we manage to do accomplish everything on his visit.

Finally, let me finish this off with this hilarious picture.. Tell me what u think.. LOL!

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Last night, my sweetie n I talked on GTalk for more than 6 hours straight. It's good when he has two days off and he has no other activity. We watched videos simultaneously on UTube and played some online games. It was the next best thing since we cannot be physically together.

These past few months we are becoming really much closer than before as we have to discussed about our future plans, both immediate and long term. I am starting to feel very relaxed with him as I can tell him all my worries and requests as well. For instance, I just sent him an updated version of my CV and asked his opinion which particular industry can I try.

He gave me kind words of encouragements that sooner or later some company would really pay attention and give me a chance to prove myself. During my low moments especially when I lost that 3400Euro for being honest, he sent me a bouquet of flowers and talked to me until the wee hours of the morning in Shanghai.

Right now, the terrible shock of quitting my high-paying PhD position is slowly rubbing off but still I haven't had any clear idea what I'm gonna do after. Of course, I am gonna be enrolled in a Chinese language school. As early as now, I am using all my free time to improve my Chinese by listening to daily podcasts. When I am feeling lazy for the day, I simply threat myself that if I don't study hard, my Mandarin will be the same level as my Japanese. Since I don't want that to happen, I try speaking Chinese on the Chinese stores and restaurants here, unconcerned if they can actually understand English. I let go of my shyness, in fact one time I ordered Chinese food delivery, I spoke 50% Mandarin. "Zhe li, nae ga hao? [    ]  Gei wo nae ga. Wo xiang Chao fan he tu duo. Wo xihuan he xue pi. Gei wo er ge." Yeah, I don't know if the grammar is particularly correct but at least, the person can understand my tones.

Anyway, I am sure that if I can master Mandarin then getting a job in Shanghai wouldn't be so impossible. Well, in case I just become so unlucky, I can always rely on my sweetie and perhaps be his business partner.

Currently listening to: Chinese Pod - Airplane Arrivals
Currently watching: Binbo Danshi starring Oguri Shun
Currently feeling: accomplished

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My hormones have been fluctuating terribly lately. For no apparent reason, I would get really depressed and call my bf then find a way to complain to him. After which, I would feel horrible of what I have done and even become more depressed. It is a crazy cycle.

Earlier, he might have noticed why I am continuously nagging him and so he began complaining. When I heard the tone of his voice, I knew it wasn't a promising sign, and so I resort to the most effective way -- crying!!

Of course he felt guilty and for 20 minutes, he just tried to pacify me. I think I'm very lucky with him cause he really loves me a lot that he is ready to make me happy at all cost. I am thankful to God for giving me such a man. Not every girl is as fortunate as I am.

Anyway, I am sure of one thing, that he is the ONE for me and that he is the only one who can complete me as a person--yeah, "throw away the feminists badge!"

So, what am I crying about in the first place?? Oh well, quitting Mathematics is not as easy as what I have thought it would be. I mean, I know I could have bear the additional 3 more years in Ireland and get myself a PhD but then it would mean that I will be away from my bf for 3 more years -- which in intolerable.

Hence, I just weighed the options. 1) I sucked the 3 years of loneliness and continue with the LDR, and after that be with him, if we have endured the temptations around us and survived the ordeal. Or just 2) Quit my PhD, and in 3 years I would have a family with him.

I guess, being already 26 years old made me favoured the 2nd. Of course, it also comes with a hefty price of losing the 20,000Euro salary, but on another hand, it means that I'm getting married... YES! the first official announcement on my blog! We are tying the knot this August!

 We are now choosing our rings..

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