Next week, I will be flying 9000 miles (700 euros) to win back the love of my life.
I tried to move on, I even dated with other guys, but it is just too damn hard. I love my boyfriend, who at one time is my fiance'.

My question is this -- what should be the best approach?
1) Cool friendly approach - let's just hang out, have dinner, watch movie
2) Pitiful cause I know he really loves me, I'll melt down his cold heart
3) Strong and bitchy - "I made a mistake in choosing u. You are really despicable. I deserve more."
4) The reverse psychology-approach - No, I don't want u anymore, I'm happy with my life now.
5) Hopeless Romantic Fool from serenades to Pablo Neruda's poems. "Tonight I can write the saddest lines.."

I believe that if u set your heart into it, IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!

Currently listening to: Gitara by Parokya ni Edgar
Currently reading: Newsweek
Currently watching: Go Bords
Currently feeling: scared

まだ、彼氏が愛してます！ずっと、ずっと。。

anyway, nakikinig ako nung song ni Gary Grananda, Pag natatalo ang Ginebra. Kaka-relate ako..

"GALIT AKO SA IMPERYALISTA
GALIT AKO KE PRESIDENT GLORIA
FEEL NA FEEL KONG MAGING AKTIBISTA
PAG NAG-AAWAY KAME NI FAFA.."

(翻訳： I hate US-Imperialists, I hate Gloria Arroyo, I really feel like being an activists, when I'm fighting with my boyfriend!"

 

Another one:

BUMABALIK SA AKING ISIP
ANG TEACHER KO SA MATHEMATICS
PARANG GUSTO KO NANG MAGKA-GIYERA
NUNG IBINI-REAK AKO NI MOSTFA!

翻訳： I feel like wanting to have a new world war, When Mostafa said that he wants to break up!

 

Currently listening to: Pag natatalo ang Ginebra
Currently reading: Economists issue FEB 29
Currently watching: The Correspondents GMA controversy on Spratly
Currently feeling: birthday mood

A few minutes ago I was on my way to the laundromat about to transfer my clothes from the washer to the dryer when house's main door got broken and I cannot get outside. I tried pushing it to no avail and I was stuck on the ground with my fertile imagination thinking about fires and earthquakes (though they don't really happen in this part of the world.)

And then suddenly this guy who was also on his way to the laundromat to get his clothes saw my panic against the door. He offered a hand and he banged hard against the door until it was released from its hinges.

Finally, we were off to the laundromat. I noticed that he looks kinda middle eastern and I suppose like everyone else he's from Pakistan. But anyway, I still ask for the sake of the formalities. And this is a piece of the conversation:

"I'm from IRAN!"

"Oh cool! What do u do?"

"Engineering. First year PhD, Biometric . And u?"

"Mathematics. Also first year."

"Great! I do mathematical modeling."

"And when did u arrive in Ireland?"

"Last summer. I like it here."

"Cool! Which apartment do u live in?" (I have no idea why I ask this, nor do I think it's appropriate!)

"10-6-3! The second floor."

"I see. I live on the floor above."

On our way back, he was carrying his pile of clothes from his sports bag. We passed by the broken door again. I assume he would take the lift after all he is carrying a heavy bag but he preferred the stairs.

I was a bit disappointed as I want to proceed with the conversation. But nevertheless, I held back knowing that I cannot really show my A-Game because I was then wearing a very worn out coat and jogging pants.

Besides, I think he is kinda "gay" because he didn't squeeze my hand when we shook hands. Yeah, if a guy likes u he would definitely squeeze your hand and would not like to let it go.

Well, anyway, all I'm hoping is have another "Alfred" in my life. Yeah, the Koean boy in Soshigaya whom I can never have but still makes my heart beat faster everytime I see him on the dorm lobby.

Yeah, gusto ko lang ng kalaro..

Currently listening to: Cpod - Marriage and divorce
Currently reading: The Economist March 7
Currently feeling: flirty

Hail Mary full of grace the Lord is with u. Blessed our you amongst women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus.

Bahala na, Lord.. Di ko alam kung paano gagawin pero I'll hold nothing back. Good bye pride.

This is it!

Currently reading: Peyups thread
Currently watching: Happy Slip
Currently feeling: depressed

Hi babe,

Today is March 24, 2008. I would have loved to talk to you more but unfortunately you have been to busy recently. So, I guess I have to contend myself in recording this video and time travel to the future. I don't know when you will actually be viewing this, it could be weeks, months, or even years from now. But it doesn't matter when. I just hope that u still remember me.

Sometimes when you are out at night, do u feel that the wind on your cheeks. Those were my kisses, babe, I'm blowing them from a distant land hoping that somehow they find their way to u. You are my baby, even if you already belong to someone else right now, even if someone else is with u at this moment, even if I'm exchanging vows with someone else, you will always be my baby. I will treasure the day when you smiled at me, when u took my hand and danced with me, the first movie we enjoyed together, the first meal, the first night when we made love and lose our innocence to this world, the first song u sang for me, isn't it "You're beautiful by James Blunt," and the first time I said I love you and u missed your flight to Fukuoka.

I meant it before, and I meant it now. I don't want to cry while I'm here in Shanghai with you cause I want u to remember me as the girl with the perfect smile, with the perfect set of teeth, the girl with the most kissable lips. I wanted to be remembered as your baby, the one who cared for you the most, the one who speaks funny Japanese, the one who laughs at your English, the one who taught u the words "COMPELLED" and the one that "ARRESTS" you with her simple remarks.

But most importantly babe, I wanted to be remembered as the girl who loved u the most, and the one who loved with all her heart and soul. I am your girl, I am your lady, I am your princess, and you are my prince. I never regret meeting u no matter what had happened. Because I know that for SEVEN MONTHS, you have loved me, for 7 MONTHS, you have been faithful to me, for 7 months, I made your world revolve and you made mine. For 7 months from March to September 2007. We were the happiest couple in the world. Do you remember what u said in Shinagawa station on the last day of Golden Week? For 7 months, babe! But then "Wake me up when September ends."

Now, I leave u with 7 snippets which I have all written this day. When u seek with your heart, you will find them. Good luck babe.

AND REMEMBER THAT I LOVE YOU!! I really do!

Currently listening to: You are beautiful
Currently watching: Making the Video
Currently feeling: tear jerking

Miracles happen! when u believe with your heart and soul.

Currently listening to: When you believe
Currently reading: 1984
Currently feeling: shocked