WOULD u like to learn speak J-lingo? What is it, u may ask?

J-Lingo was originally used by "parlour gays" in the Philippines, but it becomes such a fad that it's now used for fun. You can often hear closed girl friends and colleagues speaking this way. Anyway, I call it "JJ" -- because I'm gonna be dealing only with the extreme "gay" words and phrases.

• GIRL - when you refer to any female/she-male instead of saying her name, u call her "girl." To avoid ambiguity, u either have to point to that person or you have to make your sentence easier to understand by the context.
• Manash -  another way of referring to your girl /gayfriends. But it's more for an intimate relationship and a second-person pronoun only, whilst, "GIRL" can be used as third-person pronoun.
  
• FAFA - this is the counterpart for males. Fafa has two connotations, either it's an old man who's like a sugar daddy to a younger woman, or a (young) unemployed hunk who goes out with gays or older matrons in exchange for money. (ika nga, Fafakainin, Fafaliguan, Fafaligayin..) 
• Hot Fafa / Fafable / Fafalicious / Yummy - Just to be polite to your guy friends, you refer to them as Fafa. But that doesn't mean that they're really hunk Fafa material. If they are then you describe them using those above-metioned adjectives.
• Macho Fafa -  from the song of Masculados. It's a "Fafa" whom you give oral sex to.
  
•  CHAKKERS - one of my most favorite expressions. I like it because it is so versatile. It can describe almost anything which of bad taste or whenever you want to criticize something. For example, for cheap quality shoes, you can say CHAKKERS. For Chinese-made clothes, you can say CHAKKERS. For Palompon Institute of Technology, you say "What a chakkers college." For Hollywood movies, you say "..is so CHAKKERS!" Even for American soldiers, you can call them "CHAKKERS!"
• LORD - usually use as an interjection for complaints or of intense emotions. There is no meaning but you place some emphasis on the importance of what you are saying. For example, your neighbor kept on pestering you about playing loud music, so when u relate this to your friend, you say, "Lord, he's such a psycho!" OR when your boyfriend doesn't reply your mails often, you say, "I don't know anymore, Lord."
• GOOD LUCK NA LANG  - can be used in conjunction with "Lord." It's stressed out your complaints and worries. For instance, a pesky guy is asking you out and you wanted to make an excuse that you have an exam next week. You will say, "If I didn't study for it, Diyos ko Lord, good luck na lang." Also, suppose your mother has prepared you a nice breakfast but then you have to hurry to catch up the train, you can say, "Naku naman, kung kakain pa ako, good luck na lang."
• HELLER? - same meaning as "Good luck na lang." It's like a way for asking if "Heller (Hello), ok ka lang?"
  
• WAGI - literally means "to win." It denotes a good deal or something is in a good state. For instance, you've first met your best friends FAFA, and you found him to be FAFABLE enough, you'll probably comment, "Hmmm, Wagi yan!"
  
• IF I KNOW - stands as a connector for statements, showing the knowledge of the speaker. "Lagi daw siyang busy, if i know, may kinakalantari na siya sa office niya."
• SUCH A .. - you can add almost any word after. Ex "Such a bitch, such a whore, SUCHAJERK, such a babe, such a nerd, such a hottie.." 
  

Now for some easy words

• ITITCH - (root: Ito - This, これ）
• JOKLA - (root: bakla) Although, this is originally one of the first terms in J-Lingo, now it sounds too derogatory to be used.
• JOWA - (root: syota) This refers to boyfriend or girlfriend.
• CHISMAX - (root: chismis) Gossips
• CHUPA CHUPS - (root: Chupa) This is a cute way to say call oral sex.
  
• MOOLA - (American slang for money)
  
• JONTIS - (root: buntis) pregnant. knocked up
• DAKOTA - (root: Dako--Bisayan word for big) this means a guy has a big member! So Wagi!
• PYRO OLYMPICS -  people with body odour. Use to refer foreigners coming from colder regions or the middle east who are not accustomed to taking a bath daily.
• OKUR - (root: 黒い-くろい kuro） meaning black.
  

Well, that's all for now. If I see plenty of hits for this entry, then I'll try to add up more words. Have a good one!

Currently listening to: Sana ngayon Pasko by Jolina Magdangal
Currently reading: David Freeman's paper
Currently feeling: JJ

I've just discovered free sauna in the University. 幸福な that is next to impossible in Japan, so I'm really happy!

Also, I'll try to attend Irish classes from February. I don't intend to really learn much but I wanted to show-off when I go to other places. I don't think Gaelic is very difficult, the sentence structures seems pretty easy. It's just they use a rather weird way of pronounciation. For instance, the "Taoiseach" is actually pronounced as T-shock!

I also got my first real baito and if everything pushes accordingly, I could be raking in thousands of Euro for commission. Hmmmm, I'm really enjoy being in sales promotion. It's one of the coolest jobs in the planet. and it feels more like a game than a work so I love it.

Money is really not a question right now. I've discovered the right shops that sells things very, very cheaply. Plus, I hardly spend anything on phone bills. Would u believe, I've been living here for 2 months exactly and it has only costed me 5 euros in total for my phone bills. I mean, in Japan, normally I pay 4000 yen and an additional 2000 for Brastel international calls.

On the other hand, life here is very lame. I hardly go out and 2 months has passed and still I haven't found any friends to hang out with. I really need a sustaineable hobby. 3 years is too long!!

 

Currently listening to: Last Christmas by Savage Garden
Currently reading: Constructing pairing-friendly genus 2 curves over prime fields
Currently watching: Darren Hayes
Currently feeling: mellow

Another Tuesday I've spent hearing about "Successful Entrepreneurs." Another meal saved for me, another 90 minutes to waste instead of waiting for my bf's mails that takes forever to come. Just like any others, or so I thought.

Today's speaker is Tony Ennis, the founder of BAYU, Ireland's #1 supplier of natural gas. Nice guy at first glance, but a typical businessman. The only thing untypical I would say is that he didn't use any Powerpoint slides to bombard us with the figures that the company is currently earning.

Overall, he's one hell of a speaker and very inspirational, citing quotes like "A blackbelt is a white belt who didn't give up.." and even telling about the "Honda story."

In fact, I found myself all ears and even encouraged to start my own business. I'm not sure, me--come on--I'm mathematics geek who is clueless on money-related matters and has the littlest social skills. Why, I can hardly make any friends after 2 months of settling in Ireland and only if I weren't living with Filipinos in Japan, then 3 years would have been spent in an unending soliloquy. Yes, me -- a PhD student of one of the most impractical fields of science.

But my vision is good.  In my case, I would say, "I traded my ambitions for a warmer place to sleep." I'm tired of being poor, I'm tired of always not having enough money to buy food or plane tickets. Sometimes, i feel ashame that I'm already 25 years old and I still haven't gotten myself any decent-paying job. I've always been a student and sadly that is my comfort zone.

I feel like a disabled person always waiting for charity from the government or any institution who would be willing to sponsor me. Yes, I'm able to travel the world through my scholarships but always I have to get the cheapest flights and sleep on crappy hostels or train stations.

Sometimes, I also want to be rich. Sometimes, I also dream like normal people.

Currently listening to: Mahou no kotoba by Spitz
Currently reading: Notes from Tony Ennis' speech
Currently watching: Happy Slip
Currently feeling: lonely

Will USA ATTACK IRAN ??

I posted this on a forum on peyups.com, hoping to spread the knowledge amongst Filipino immigrants in the US.

Earlier, I attended a short talk held in the campus c/o the Socialist Group. Sadly, fewer than 20 people came and all are familiar faces. I volunteered to distribute flyers for the upcoming world-wide march on Saturday. It seems much more difficult to encourage students to joing demonstrations in a first world country. In the Philippines, rallies are a way of life and we almost thrive on mobocracy.

I guess, a comfortable lifestyle breeds socially-apathetic personalities. After all, why should u care about crises on another part of the world if you are living in luxury and as long as u keep your nose clean, then u remain that way.

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During the discussion, I was shocked when a girl raised a point about Iran's nuclear issues and citing instances about Iran's crimes on Israel. Hmmm.. no comment, just sheer ignorance, I guess.

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If someone will question my real intensions on this issue, well the truth is I've been anti-war ever since I can remember. I was born in the early 80s and I was raised listening to Peter, Paul, and Mary songs, and I've even tried marijuana just to get the hang of the hippie-peace-luvin culture. And then when I got older, I got to be a student of Prof. Walden Bello (probably Asia's best sociologist) and I learned about the crimes of America to the world, particular to Vietnam during the 70s.

And then on my first trip abroad, I decided to see this country first hand and I witnessed the horrendous effects of the Agent Orange on the Vietnamese. Then there was the 9-11 which were overly dramatized by the media to justify attacks on the Middle East. Even if I've never been to Iraq and Afghanistan (and don't intend to, btw), I think that the current devastation there is now much worse than Vietnam, then.

Anyway, I just want to say --

FUCK AMERICA!!!

 

Currently listening to: Blowin' in the wind
Currently reading: Is democracy mathematically unsound?
Currently feeling: angry

I was just watching KEVJUMBA and Christine of Happy Slip in UTube and an alarming thought just hit me. I learned that Kev is of Chinese ethnicity while Christine is Filipino, but both grew up in the States. They're both hilarious esp Christine's imitation of the filipino accent, but the truth is I'm still very turned off with Asian kids raised in the US. Maybe it's because I have plenty of anti-US sentiments, but besides that it's the innately aggressive nature of Americans which just puts me off.

Basically, I grew up as a very shy Filipino kid without much social skills and I'm naturally nice to everyone, or at least pretend to be until I already have an intimate relationship with them. Yeah, I'm very Japanesey and Irish and Middle Eastern in that sense and that's why I get along with them. But when it comes to aggressive people like Americans, British, Australians, Latinos, I feel like being swallowed alive.

My personal worry is this -- what if "we" have kids in the future and we live in one of those places I've mentioned, I mean, what will happen to them? Surely, they'll adapt to the enviroment and develop an aggressive personality, so would they look down on their parents who are both non-native English speakers and are meek and gentle people.

yeah, just counting chicks here.

Currently listening to: Spitz - Cherry
Currently reading: Is Democracy Mathematically Unsound?
Currently watching: Maz Jobrani
Currently feeling: morose

NOVA-UCD's 7th installment for the fall term -- Philip Sharpe of Cape Technolgies. The talk is a bit boring and I'm a bit flustered that I didn't get to eat much cause someone finished all the sandwiches before I can lay my hands on them.

well, anyway, I was talking with my room mate about the possibility of starting a business in Ireland. he's a lecturer in a business school of UCD and he said that youngsters have a tendency of being uncreative, u know in the sense that they just want to start a coffee shop, or a bookstore, or an internet cafe, or a restaurant. but what NOVA encourages students to do is try more innovative matters, u know like Internet Banking, Medican Softwares, etc. but then again, sometimes these things are mind-blowing for the inxperienced.

i guess my main advantage is that i'm coming from a totally different background and i got access to the most advanced mathematical researches which can served as the backbone for tomorrow's technology. i mean, look at how RSA and it's offshoots practically changed the world. and look at how the mathematical search algorithms made two billionaires in the google founders.

lastly, i'll post here a comment of my lovey, he graduated in an Engineering course in the #1 university in Tokyo, but he really doesn't want to practice as an engineer. he thinks that engineers are mostly overworked and underpaid and are slaves to their bosses. the truth is that i'm slowly seeing his point.

last week, one electrical engineer colleague asked we can have any collaborations on Hyperelliptic curves, and he said he can build me the state-of-the-art microchips which would give us record-breaking results. (right now, i think HEC is one of the unchartered math territories, so there is plenty of room for breakthroughs) the truth is that i'm very excited considering that i'm still learning the DIVISOR language at this point, but i believe it's one of the perks of being a mathematician.

in fact another colleague of mine who's a former NSA cryptographer tells interesting stories about the so-called Math-mafia, (try searching about Dan Brown's Digital Fortress.) and yeah, that's NSA.  American's invasion to privacy used as anti-terrorism measure. oh well!

Currently listening to: JPOD
Currently reading: ZNET
Currently feeling: cold

It's rather disappointing on how UP scholars reacted to my post on peyups.com regarding the possibility of US attacking Iran. I've been in a heated debate with a Filipino who's obviously gotten a green card (or has now gotten an American citizenship) whose views are really, really ridiculous.

Can u imagine I was accused of being anti-semitic? I mean, f**k!! I'm a Filipino, brown-skin, chinky eyes, flattened nose, COME ON -- I don't even know if it's a noun or an adjective?

I think Filipinos abroad like that one are much-worse than Americans themselves. They think that they're superior to Filipinos who has never been to the US and brags how many time they've been mistaken as a native American because their tongues have already adapted the American accent.

Good thing, not everyone is like that. When I was in Japan, I recall a co-scholar proudly introducing herself to Australians and Bristish -- "I'm a Filipino and I have Filipino accent and I'm proud of it! I'm not going to pretend and hide it. " She's a magna-cum laude graduate of UP by the way and now a PhD student in one of the best universities in Japan while doing a part-time job as an English teacher of GABA.

It also reminded me of a particular conversation with Fidel Nemenzo where he said that Filipinos lack the sense of being one. During that time I didn't understand such a profound statement but after several years, an Iranian boy showed me the light.

When me and my bf were first dating, I noticed him always checking his mobile phone for incoming e-mails and it irritated me a bit. Since we both agree on a no-secret policy, I decided to peek through his phone and saw that he is in constant communication with a certain person. The sender's name sounds male enough so I dismissed the possibility of a third party. Then, when I read one of the messages there, I was shocked to see something like this:

"I found a new and interesting site about ancient PERSIAN civilization. This has insights on King **** Check out the link below."

My GOD! I was just amazed, I mean, can u imagine 20-something guys having the enthusiasm for that? Certainly, I don't know any Filipino who's like that, not even the Nemenzos nor the Walden Bello nor our culture activists I know. What I'm saying is that here is a random Iranian boy who has lived more than 1/3 of his life abroad, and on his first date with a girl, he tells stories about the greatest empire in the history.

The week after that we decided to watch videos on YouTube and there he forced me to watch that 70-minute 7-part show about Persian Civilization. I tried to bargain and luckily he agreed for just 3 parts provided I can answer his questions after each video. I tried my best to stay awake but then he asked really difficult questions like, "What do u call the special shovel that Sassanid used on..?" and so I failed his test. As a punishment he made me listen to the infamous Noam Chomsky, about US policies on the Middle East. Really, if only he's not a dead ringer of a much-hotter Enrique Iglesias then I would have dumped him then.

 
Fortunately I listened .. and learned. Naturally, I also shared our Filipino culture, after all "Kokusai Kankei" is primarily about cultural learnings and being Japanese Government scholars, we are usually called as the "little ambassadors." Though he said that he's very jealous of the freedom in the Philippines, the truth is that I'm more envious of Iranian's nationalism. They may not be enjoying democracy like we do, but it also made me ponder on the words of another famous UP professor, Randy David, "The Philippines as a nation is too immature for democracy."

I was also like any other kid who had that American dream, and I would have gladly sold my soul to Satan for that much-aspired green card. But now that I'm older, I have plenty of realizations and I'm slowly being able to integrate the knowledge I learned from my past experiences and from the people who has influenced me in one way or another. I've been to North America: East Coast, West Coast, Middle America, Mountains, even Hawaii and Canada, and I would say that there is hardly anything fascinating about that region.

Obviously, I will never be Iranian (I mean genetically), but at the same time I'm gradually being detached from my own country and countrymen. It depresses me.

Currently listening to: Noam Chomsky
Currently reading: The last testament by Sam Bourne
Currently feeling: depressed

Thank God, my Chinese roommate recommended me an awesome internet site with plenty of free movies, tv shows, sitcoms, and documentaries. I don't want to say the link here cause if plenty of people would access it, then the site might exceed it's bandwidth or that they may start charging for the streams. But it's really cool -- right now, I'm into "Malcolm in the middle." Sounds pretty lame, huh?

Love it though, and it makes me long in having my own family with plenty of kids. hopefully, my boyfriend wouldn't read this. teehee. ohh, the youngest kid "Dewey" is sooo adorable!  子供が欲しい

P.S. My bf is absolutely gonna freak out. just joking!

Currently listening to: Eyes on me by Faye Wong
Currently watching: Malcolm in the middle Season 1 marathon
Currently feeling: enthralled

ano ba ibig sabihin ng "Baleleng?"

sori, hirap talaga ng boljak sa abroad at dagdagan mo ng YouTube!! yan, ganyan ang mangyayari. Maho-homesick nang di maipaliwanag

naalala ko noong bata pa ako, pulos kase tiga-Abra ang mga katulong namin kaya yan ang hilig patugtugin. saka doon sa malapit na beerhouse samin, lagi kong naririnig pag dumadaan ako galing school.

Currently listening to: Baleleng
Currently watching: Baleleng vid
Currently feeling: cranky

worried.. losing money ..

no, can't

mustn't

don't

stop 

continue

struggle

for one

goal

to achieve

we shall overcome

someday

somehow

help

helpless

feel desperate

lo and behold

where

am i

heading?

soul

is tired

crazy

the waiting

killing me

penchant

for crying

out loud

control

fears

sadness

shall not let

negativity

carry it's

whim

i love

no one

else

 

Currently listening to: keyboard clicks
Currently reading: Tom Clancy The Teeth of the Tiger
Currently watching: Malcolm in the middle
Currently feeling: gamut of emotions