shizukuxp

after more than 2 years of being away, i'll be back to the P.I. in 3 days. except for my family, no one is aware is about that.

i'm not very excited and in fact if only i have enough funds, i would have stayed in tokyo. even if i'm still a filipino, i feel like tokyo is my home. in fact, compared to the almost paradise kind of life i had in hawaii, i would prefer tokyo any given time or day.

somehow, what i'm saying is quite weird considering what i have been complaining about on my archives. i have despised so many things about japan, esp my school life, but overall, inspite of all of those trying times, i still had plenty of exhilirating highs in this city.

but maybe returning to my home country is a way to move forward. after all, i will be staying in ireland from september this year. it's a good chance to bond with my family and at the same time spend as little as possible. i could learn how to play the guitar and read novels all i want. i can meet old friends and former classmates from UPD.

besides, my boyfriend might also pay me a visit once he settles down in shanghai. now that's definitely something i am looking forward to. i love him so much and i am having positive visions about us. maybe, he's really the one i've been looking for all my life. i hope he is also feeling the same way.

another good thing about going back to the P.I. is being reunited with Jason!!! yeah, Jason is the name of my Mazda'98 car. it's one of my first major finances of my life. i'm proud of my car and i had wonderful memories driving in the city. it would be wonderful to drive around UPD oval once again.

lastly, i am going back right now knowing that i have that special someone who loves me and no longer have to worry about the prejudices of rumors , etc. i guess i'm very lucky with my boyfriend.

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shizukuxp

The guy next door is really a pain in the ass. I can't believe someone as cruel and despicable as that can exist in this world. He's probably a psycho or a screwed up redneck. People like that should be placed on a mental institution instead of receiving money from the Japanese Government.

I feel that he has qualities of the Virginia Tech Gunman. He's been staying in Soshigaya dorm for more than a year and no one has hardly ever heard of him. And he is really creepy. He would look at you in the way that he wants to do freaky things to you. I swear I was scared out of my wits. He stays inside his room probably plotting ways to start a massacre in this dorm and complaining to person next door about the most trivial things. Unfortunately, the guy next door is my boyfriend and by certain twist of fate I am currently staying there temporarily.

My boyfriend is the nicest guy you can ever imagine and I'm not saying that because he's my boyfriend. But ask anyone in the dorm and they would vouch for him any given time or day. I swear he's the type of person who would get along with anybody.

But then this American idiot named Andrew begins to stage unreasonable demands about noise or lack thereof and anything in between. He would complain about vacuum cleaners and laundry and view and whatever he can come up with. 

And now he starts to follow me and act very, very psychotic. He threatens me to leave my boyfriend's room and he bangs at the walls when I'm sleeping at night. We have never been introduce formally but he knows my name and talks to me whenever he see me. Really, really, really creepy!!

I hope that people will take me seriously cause this guy Andrew is really a threat to himself and to the other residents here. The good thing is that I'm leaving Tokyo tomorrow and hopefully I'll never see him again.  

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shizukuxp

now that i'm really in a relationship, which incidentally is with an authentic foreynjer, i can say that i'll never ever fall for a Pinoy anymore. i'm back in my country and everywhere i look, i see Pinoys (of course) and the thought of them with me is simply disgusting.

i haven't had any boyfriend who's a Pure Filipino except for a 2-week affair with a UP Engineering guy I barely know. Nevertheless, I have had some feelings for a Pinoy senpai in Japan and I waited for him for more than a year. he's a good guy, a superb friend, and there are plenty times when i thought that we could've been a perfect couple. The guy however pushed me to the edge of my patience and to the brink of insanity (well, almost!)

In general, Pinoys are like that-- Big scumbag BURAOTS!!

Pinoys are simply impossible to understand. at first one may think that you will have a big language barrier with a foreynjer, but in reality, communication with a monoligual russian is much, much easier.

Even when I'm watching TV dramas or advertisements and I'm reminded of qualities of the macho Filipino, I can't help but get all flustered up with them. The worst thing I hate about them is how superficial a girl should be acting in a relationship. With a Pinoy, you always have to be pretentious and keep them guessing at bay. You can never be true to yourself otherwise they will be judging you as such or such. If you confront them, they'll think you're a nagger. If you keep it cool, they'll label you as frigid and uninterested. If you have too much fun with their company, they'll regard you as a 'Pare = just a best friend material.' If you become compassionate, then you are just like a big sister. And if you cling to them, then you are a needy psycho!

Now, if that wouldn't drive you crazy then I don't know what will. Hmmm, perhaps, I know what will send you all the way to the asylum: Pinoys are very, very prone for disloyalty. I'm sure all men from all races have trouble keeping up with monogamy, but with Pinoys, it's not just the infidelity issue, but the circumstances given. For instance, I've known a couple of Pinoys who cheated on their pretty girlfriends and they have looks which can scare Sadako. I mean, the nerve "Ang Chakkers na nga ng itsura..". To make it worse, they often blame their gf's for the failure of the relationship.

Creep! I can't believe my luck-- my passport says Filipinas!! Gosh!! disgusting!!

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shizukuxp

Dear Bernadette, 

I love my bf so much.

I'm so happy I have someone like him. He's a blessing from God: the culmination of all the frustrations and sufferings I had before. He's well worth the wait. Thank you very much for introducing us.

The only trade off is this long distance thing. It can really be tiring and sometimes I spend more time on the internet than on the real world. We communicate at least once in a day. There are plenty of moments for doubts and temptations are everywhere. That's why trust and commitment are always necessary.

Nevertheless, we are both tough and we are prepared for almost anything. We know that someday, somewhere we can finally be together.

Sincerely yours,

Bruce

 fooled ya, right?? just wanna sound funny!!!!!

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