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saikin napapadalas ang panonood ko ng kajologanz Finoy movies sa YouTube. c kouhai kase, yun pala ang hilig. at shempre dun ang homestay ko. ok rin kase nakakapagmove-on ako sa mga nag-alisang senpai.

di ko nga alam, basta feel ko ang company ng mga tiga-senmon gakkou. siguro dahil sa mas mga bata, parang mas light at fresh. ewan ko.. meron nga akong nakilalang friend nilang Indojin na parang si Serogja kumilos.

missed ko na si Serogja. matagal na shang di nagpaparamdam. minsan naiisip ko na lang na bigla ko na lang siyang makikita sa Shinjuku, sa kabila ng milyong-milyong taong naroroon. kahit pa, alam ko na nasa kabilang bahagi siya ng mundo, parang may hope ako na bigla ko na lang siyang makikita.

basta naalala ko yung sinabi niya sa tanong ko, "What is the probability that we're gonna meet up in this vast cosmos?" 

His answer: "If it's meant to be, then the probability is 1." wala lang, sa mga di maka-gets, check nyo high school stat ninyo, hehe.

nasan na kaya siya? tama sha eh, hindi mahalaga kung sa LA man, o sa Laramie, sa Hawaii, o sa Canada, o sa Russia. basta naniniwala ako na one day magkikita kaming muli.

masaya pa rin naman ako, at yun ang mahalaga. at least di ba there's always something to look forward to. everyday is an adventure for me.  

Currently listening to: Life for rent by Dido
Currently reading: Lecture Notes from NTRU
Currently feeling: cynical

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my kouhai gave me a very tempting offer of staying at her place till march. it's very tempting in the sense that i can once again live permanently at Soshi and save the 64,000 yen I'm paying every month at Sakura House.

of course i'm quite half-hearted by this because I will be jamma to her. right now, i'm staying at her room 3-4 days in a week, and we don't have any problems regarding our sleeping habits, and so. but if i move in with her, that means that all my stuffs will go to her room and that might make it mi-nikui.

the good thing about being in Soshi is the environment is very conducive for living, afterall it's quite a short walk from Seijo, considered to be the Beverly Hills of Japan. and most of my friends are also there, not to mention the fact that Dennis also comes to visit during the weekend.

lately, i cannot completely assess my feelings towards him. we seem to be more amiable towards each other but of course i'm still kinda avoiding being alone with him. i don't know why i do that, but perhaps i just cannot treat him the same way as before after perhaps serogja and all of the last years traumatic incidents with him and st. bernard. lol with the new nickname!

another problem with being close to dennis is that his "wife" is always on lurking on our backs. the thing is that she doesn't know that the idea of being a concubine thrills me more than anything in the planet and ever since she started setting a fence around dennis, it just made me more challenged than being in love. i don't think i'm in love with dennis, but i love the feeling of going after someone unavailable.

as Serogja always puts it, "Single people are so uninteresting!"

one advantage of living in Sakura is that it's very convenient to go and come back to central Tokyo. i have plenty of arubaito in Shinjuku and also i can go to the church regularly. but on the other hand, living with my kouhai would actually save me the 60000+/month which means i can do away with too much baito.

what to do? 

-mG 

Currently listening to: Narda by Kamikaze
Currently reading: NTRU

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got this new phone courtesy of Softbank, the successor of the problem infested company Vodafone. it costs me 1￥and i even got a 2-gig IPOD Nano for free. plus, i won't have any phone bills for the next 2 months as part of the promo. the unit is is slick, light weight, and half the thickness of an odinary flip flop in japan. although it's camera has only 2 MP capability, it has all the standard features of a hi-tech equipment like Bluetooth, Infrared, USB, MC, Media Player, Roaming, etc.,

this is probably too good to be true, so there must be a catch... actually there is... it's clearly a plan of Softbank to expand their market to compete against larger providers like NTT DOCOMO and AU KDDI, and so inorder to accomplish this, they would want their users to stick with Softbank for a long time. and so the catch is a 2-yr contract which amounts to more than 50,000 yen, but is deductible with period of usage.

thus, using the phone for just 6 months means that i have to pay them more than 40,000 yen if i want to cancel the contract. a year reduces the fine to around 25,000 yen and full two years to zilch.

now the thing is that i'm not sure if i'm going to stay in japan beyond april of next year and as i said chances are no. well, for the moment i'll just try to savor my new phone and the IPOD which i might send to my siblings as joint birthday present. i'm not really into putting stuffs into my ears.

well, right now the cool RPG games of Vodafone-Softbank clearly edges out the boring games of ezweb. i'm kinda hooked into the download fever and since i have two months worth of free packets then i'm just gonna download every game until the phone memory runs out, which i fear to be nearing 50%.

-mG 

Currently listening to: none
Currently reading: none
Currently feeling: satisfied

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di naman sa pangiinsulto pero para saan ba talaga itong ginagawa ng mga tao sa mundo? feeling ko propaganda lang sha and another money-making scheme ng mga nagpapanggap na may kamalayan sa lipunan.

ewan ko ba kung baket sa simula pa lang ng makita ko mga white band na iyan eh chakkers na sila para saken. chakkers talaga except nung makita ko si Dencio na nakiki-ride as hype na ito and of course di naman niya alam kung anong para saan iyon. para sa mga di nakakaalam, tawagin na nating ex ko si Dencio on some level.

nung ibinigay niya saken yung white band niya eh nagdalawang-isip ako kung isusuot ko ba o hindi (see prev article last april). chakkers kase talaga atsaka para akong gago kung isusuot ko.

nung naging bf ko si serogja eh binigyan niya ako ng argentina football band and so for some time di ko na pinoproblema ang white band na yan. wala naman talaga akong paki-alam, maski ke Dencio man o sa white band.

pero nung nag-break kame ni serogja eh hinubad ko na yung argentina band at naghanap ako ulit ng abubot para sa kamay ko. tapos di ba naging sweet nga ulit si Dencio lately, and so tina-ry kong isuot ulit yung white band na bigay niya. tapos feeling ko nung makita niyang suot-suot ko eh mas naging sweet sha sakin.

chakkers talaga. di ko naman nafi-feel na nakakatulong ako sa mundo kung suot ko ito. saka isa pa, parang awkward naman naman na tinatingkilik ko pa mga kagaguhan ng mga NGO sa mundo. ewan ko kung NGO ba yun?

sa totoo lang di ko alam kase baka gusto ko pa rin pala si Dencio na yan, kahit sobrang chakkers na talaga kung uu. imagine naman na parang married na sha ngayon with his twix na super in love sa kanya. and compared to some wives who claim to love their hubbys, etong twix ni Dencio eh mahal na mahal talaga sha eh. ewan ko lang kung gayon din ang feeling ni Dencio pero naaawa ako ke twix kung magkakagusto saken si Dencio.

ah basta chakkers parin ang Fight Against Puberty na yan!! 

Currently listening to: Huwag mo nang itanong
Currently reading: Montgomery's improvement to ECM
Currently feeling: tired