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It's official, I'M IN LOVE WITH SERGEY!

This is so damn amazing and even though I haven't communicated with him for more than a week, my heart's happy and contented.  

I just finished the ultimate acid tests of watching videos of Brian and Romeo and have come up to the conclusion that it's Sir G that my heart beats for.

Perhaps, it's because the deal with Sergey is he is a funny Number Theorist. I swear on top of Romeo's grave (he's still alive but hope you get the joke there) that Sergey is the funniest guy I've ever known. Oh well, he hasn't even read his first Number Theory book, but who cares, he's Armenian. In the future he'll be a Number Theorist.

Like he used to say, if not too many people are studying Number Theory in your country then people will think that you are already a genius just because you decided to study it. Hey, heard that Bry? (again, I'm joking!)

Now, I can proudly claim to the whole world that I have so moved on from the nightmares called romeo and brian. so whatever happens between me and sergey, i guess i should still be thankful that i've overcome my crazy illusion.

I have always loved Brian as a father, but now I'm not in the daughter mood and I would be pleased to tell him "Fuck off dad!"

-mG 

Currently listening to: You made me live again
Currently reading: Hartshorne
Currently watching: Let the love begin
Currently feeling: hopeful

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2 weeks ago, I was in love... and I have done absolutely everything to stay that way, except to say "no" to a mini-Filipino gathering featuring Romeo and the girl who bitches to get down on his pants.

at first it seemed like an honest drinking spree and i figure that since i'm pretty much everything except BUSY for the next two weeks, i just agreed. but then after 5 minutes romeo joined us and the air of discomfort blew through my nerves. i swear that i'm cool about it but the verbal jeers of the crowd made me lose my compusure (what else is new?).

i don't hate romeo cause i think he's really a great guy and he's nice to me but maybe it just feels kinda weird that i like someone else right now and as i said before it's difficult to be friends with him. i think that we don't have enough things in common and so there are very breezy and casual stuffs to talk about. in fact during the said event, there was a time when we should've been left alone in the table but before that happened, i immediately excused myself to go to the bathroom.

to make matters worse, people still thinks that i have feelings for romeo inspite of the story i've concocted about an affair with an "Iraqi boy" (cf see previous post). it's quite irritating cause they always wanted me to let go and move on but when i did (and i would say that i really DID MOVED ON) they don't believe it. in fact i kinda get pissed off with romeo himself.

i admit that there was a time in my life when he was my life, romeo that is, but even so i'm not really that happy with him. with Brian there are math and gloria stuffs to talk about and so there would be no awkward moments, at least for me. but in any case brian and i can be friends if only he would stop being stubborn and open his mind. if he doesn't want to, then i won't force him, i'll say that he can just fucked off and burn in hell.

grrr! this is what i'm afraid of happening. those two jerks messed me up so badly that it took a miracle for me to wipe them off my system. and that miracle is called by the name sergey! and unfortunately he's halfway around the world and this long distance stuff is kinda dragging and somehow the magic is rubbing off.

-mG 

Currently listening to: Daniel Powter's Free Loop
Currently reading: Agatha Christie's Murder on the Links
Currently watching: FRIENDS, marathon
Currently feeling: lazy