shizukuxp

i got somehow pissed off with my friends from Badminton Addicts. this saturday there will be a mini tournament between South East Asian nations and surely after a year's worth of practice i thought that we have a decent line up to show.

the women's team as usual is composed of abby and didith, definitely our two best players and last year's runner up. for the men's singles, we had a new recruit in paolo, who just arrived in japan this spring and a former varsity member of UP Baguio. this sounds very promising however despite of the many talented guy players we have, only Brix has the guts to enter the double's competition.

nobody else wants to join because of a dismal showing last year against powerhouse teams like Cambodia, Indonesia, etc. they reasoned that they were literally clobbered and stripped out of their dignity.

poor brix. honestly he's my favorite player because of his unorthodox style and gutsy plays. i understand that they may not have any chance of winning and maybe even scoring but upon seeing their attitudes i realize that i don't want to play badminton once again and be part of their group.

you see, i came to japan and they sort of recruit me to play with them and surely i got hooked and enjoyed their company. it was also an awesome way to lose weight but their values are in stark contrast with the stuff i'm made off.

i know i sucked at badminton and probably would take 10 more years of training before i can reach the level of abby or didith. but i was once the most passionate basketball player in my baranggay. i remember teaming up with my brother and father and together we beat and got beaten by every kind of conceivable baranggay team ups. but then, i don't really care if we win or lose, the thing is that we were up to the challenge and we gave our best shot.

as my father once told me, "if michael jordan would challenge you to a 1 on 1 game, would you refuse? you'll definitely lose, and badly, but losing  that badly is a heck better than not playing at all!" in the end, you could proudly say, "been there, done that, got burned, but so what!"

my no fear slogan--i may come out as the laughing stock, but only i can determine who'll be laughing in the end. 

plus, is it really a big deal if you lose to the best player in the planet? would you get a persecution from CNN, BBS, or NHK? are you so damn popular and important that 0.1% of the populace would notice? is it a reason to lose a good night of sleep? the answer is NO to all of the questions, well, a tad of yes to the final one if you can't get over your imagination. because there is only one truth--and that is, the world doesn't care! all that matters is that you play and give your best shot.

anyway, this entry is so damn futile as i won't be showing it to anybody and if ever someone landed on this site by chance, then probably the tournament's outcome is a bygone conclusion. well, if that is the case then if you are one of those people who's supposed to team up with brix, then here's me telling u a piece of my mind:

You are a LOSER! 

-mG 

Currently listening to: Walking in the rain by AI
Currently feeling: pissed off

shizukuxp

this recent week, I seem to feel depressed despite of the fact that i'll be going to the US this friday. quite surprising since it has always been a dream of mine to step foot in "the land of the free and the home of the brave."

there is only 1 reason: i still haven't told MC. i know he's the biggest ass i've known in my life, but somehow it bothers me to abandon him without even informing where i'll be going. i tried talking to him, but everytime i get to the point of saying it, i just chicken out of the situation. he's a difficult person and i know that he's definitely gonna be piss off.

well, i have less than 24 hours before i board the plane going to NY--yeah-0MG!! New York, New York-- and i still haven't gotten the strength to tell him.

oh God, help me, bless me, save me!

-mG 

Currently listening to: New York, New York
Currently reading: Shanks-Mestre's algorithm for finding the curve order