As good as it gets
last month (end of march), i wasn't even sure if i'll be living another day cause everything's messed up. a lot of misfortunes and much more heartaches, compounding frustrations, humiliations, burnt bridges and throw in all kinds of negative sounding nouns invented. in short, every moment is hell.
now, the tide seemed to shift directions, the wheels of fate tilted, and i'm feeling really lucky. the biggest news is probably the 10 yr. multiple entry US Visa stamped on my passport. being a fan of the butterfly effect, i suddenly felt like my future has been secured for the immediate moment. it's just like a door of uncountable opportunities has been presented to me. of course i would always choose the righteous and lawful path, but i'm confident i can make it anywhere in the world.
but it's not just the US Visa, although that in itself is simply grand. i was able to accomplish milestones for the month of april which i'm not ready to divulge here, because it may be frowned upon by hypocrites. yet this certain feat marks my official entry to adulthood. it made me a hell more mature when handling my emotions and now i won't be worrying too much about being single. perhaps, you can browse through the previous entries to find out hints about it.
i remember the saying "when it rains, it pours" cause the universe is just conspiring for my luck. last sunday, i went to join the Filipino presentation on some ASEAN meet. this is simply my way of paying back one of my friends who lend me some badly-needed cash. and so, i sang, i meant rap even to my own dismay and destruction of a singing career. but anyway, after the presentation, there is a Bingo Game held to entertain the audiences and give prizes as well, the biggest of which is a digital camera. i wanted to play however since i was late in inquiring about it, they alreay ran out of Bingo cards. i looked into the booth of Filipino students who were then busily selling, mixing, blending mangoes. and out of the corner of my eye, i picked up a bingo card which obviously belonged to some Pinoy.
the game commences and i started to punch holes out of my card. there are 24 possible winners of the digicam, and i may be the 10th when the number 34 was drawn giving me a vertical Bingo. when all of the 24 prospects are called, we had a lottery of the prizes, 20 of which are sheer crap. i lined up in the lottery and when it was my time to picked a number, i'm already feeling like a winner. i didn't hesitate.. i just yelled when i drew #14, the grand prize. i hugged the commentator and screamed all my way to the Filipino booth where i stole the card.
honestly, i wasn't worried if the real owner of the card confronts me and accuse me of stealing because the moment i heard about the game, i know that i'm gonna win and needed to win. i'll going to the US on summer and i still don't have a camera to capture the greatest moments of my life. so for that time, i become macchiavelian, and walked away with my prize. well, just to make them feel better, it's nothing close to the high end model, just a 2 MP jurassic crap.
but still, my father would be pleased if i hand it to him when he comes here on August!
-mG 
Currently listening to: Tanggap ko by Nyoy Volante
Currently reading: Introduction to Commutative Algebra by Atiyah
Currently feeling: lucky
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-mG
Last month hiningi ko yung white band ni Romeo. actually na-curious lang ako roon sa nakakalat na white and red bands sa kwarto ni Lei. Yung red ay regalo raw sa kanya ni Romeo nung Vday, at nakakatawa yung nakasulat: "For love or for money!" yung slogan ng New Balance. Tapos yung white naman daw ay naiwan lang ni Romeo nung nag-overnight sha last time.
Then nung weekend na yun ay dumalaw si Romeo sa dorm. Nakakaasar sha kase sinabihan ba naman akong mataba eh sobra-sobra na nga yung pag-exercise ko, kaya nung nagbadminton kame, talagang i made sure na mapahiya sha. well, in case u don't know, lampayatot etong si Romeo.
After that, karaoke kame sa kwarto ni Lei, and well in case u don't know eh si Romeo yata ang pinaka-magaling na guy singer na kilala ko. tapos that's his turn to laugh at me nung di ko makuha yung mga tono. after that, bigla ko na lang binanggit na 
anyway, after nung simula kong suutin ang white band ni Romeo eh todo swerte ang inabot ko. una nga nakakuha ako ng 10 yr. Multiple enrty US Visa. Tapos nanalo pa ako ng Digi Cam sa Bingo. Then nakakuha ako ng audition sa Yamaha Motorbike (di pa nga lang alam ang result). kaya naman very proud ako sa new lucky charm ko.
and then kanina medyo different story ah. mejo naiilang nako roon sa floormate kong Inglesera. i mean, ok naman sha and kahit na separated sha sa mga ka-batch niya eh I'm making an effort naman to get to know her. kaya lang, hirap talaga. at di lang dahil sa pagi-Ingles niya eh. there's just something about her which reminds me of... yeah.. kaya ayun, mejo naalala ko sha and tiningnan ko yung site nga against the poverty thing. 
eh pucha!! paano na lang toh? i mean, di ba kimoi! yung pagsuot ng white band. ang weird na tuloy. yung silver bangles eh mapapalusot pa natin ke Avril Lavigne at marami namang nagsasabi saking bagay yun sa kulay ko. pero ewww... yung white band... ibang level eh. maski ako nandidiri. 
pero di ba, yung white band na suot ko ngayon eh symbol na "Peace na kame ni Romeo!" as he mentioned, kaya it is something sacred? ang hirap kayang ma-regain yung friendship na nawala and him giving this whiteband is a giant stride towards it. atsaka, anything naman na bigay ni romeo ay precious saken kase he's really one of my true friends.
sa ngayon ok lang ito eh. kebs naman ng mga tao kung may suot akong white band. pero sabi nga ng Greenday, "WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS!!"
15) Now that I Found You - MyTown, part of theme for the FN era. A lifetime's not enough to love you through, Now that I found you!
14) My Private Movie - Westlife, part of the theme for the FN era. yeah it sounds completely Breyish. Picture me all over you, picture you all over me! 
13) Westside Story - LFO, just before the FN era, this one's for JC. I know I was really crazy! But in defence, the lyrics of this song is very futuristic: Everyday I see his friends talking about me, but I know, there's something that no one can see. It reminds me of Romeo and Juliet like we're living in a movie set. 
11) Reason for Living - Westlife, i bet this is something which even the hardcore Westlife fans may not even be familiar with. but hey, i confess that i had that juvenile phase in my life when i call FN my Reason for Living-- pathetic ewww!! 
10) Walking in the Rain - A1, part of the theme for the FN era. But this one special because it's a reminder of his bestfriend Lloyd and the website complex--ewww! Feels like I'm walking in the rain, I found myself trying to wash away the pain. 
9) I don't want to kiss you good night - LFO, if LFS spells the FN era, then the prehistoric times of JC were all about LFO. I know it's gross, yeah remember when we ate at Kenny Rogers and we went home together--ewww!! I don't want to kiss you goodnight, if this kiss means this night is over!
8) Halfway Round the World - A*Teens, when FN went abroad for his first post doc, here's the song which rented the airwaves. Halfway round the world, that won't stop me from loving you...
7) If you only knew - Moffatts feat Gil Ofarim, now this is more regrettable than hilarious. i know your guts will hurt from laughing your heart for the lamest team up in Pop history but would you believe that i actually dedicate this to RD--yeah, right Coach RD-- ewww! If you only knew that I'm crazy for you, then you'll understand. If I only knew what you're going through, then I'll understand.
6) Last Flight Out - Plus One, this Christian boyband almost made me fly all the way to Singapore just to be with FN. Oh God, forgive me for I have been a psycho!! Once again, ewwww!! I'm afraid that you will see. All the weakness inside of me. I'm so scared of letting go. that the pain I feel will show. For you I will fly, at least I would try, for you I'll take, the last flight out. 
5) How do you want me to love you - 911, does their name still ring a bell? yeah, it took a while for me to retrieve this info from my memory bank since this is beyond the prehistoric times. probably occurring during the big bang time. yeah days of stalking Yves Dignadice on the phone!! ewww!! How do you want me to love you? Take it fast, take it slow, baby let me know. How do you want me to love you? In my heart, in my soul, I'll take you anywhere you want to go?
4) Love - Moffats, in 1999, i started a written journal and it contains just one ill-written entry, well, actually just a doodle of a lyric. but a most significant and necessary such proof of being in love with JC. Oh Fu*kin Ewww!! If it's love, and it turns me on like when the sun goes down and the moon comes up.. In fairness, the lyric is awesome. 
3) It makes me ill - N'Sync, the pre-FN era is marked by a major catastrophe, namely Mr. Voodo Fag. I don't know what has got into me but there was a particular period in my life when i was actually jelous of Lannie because Mr. Fag is courting her and I kinda fancy him-- Triple Ewww!! "It makes me ill, love and affection at your will, you can imagine how it makes me ill to see you with him!" 
2) Kunin Mo Na Ang Lahat Sa Akin - Jeremiah, the only OPM entry on this list and for God's sake, it's again for Lannie and Mr. Fag. I'm sure my friends would still remember that Lantern Parade when I whine myself to death about them walking side by side. As in, thinking about it just feels like a hundred million ewww!!!! Kunin mo na ang lahat sa akin, wag lang ang aking mahal! Alam kong kaya mong pa-ibigin sha, nakiki-usap akong magmahal ka na lang ng iba! 
