あなたはずっと大好きな人。でも平気のため彼氏はすでに思い出の中の人にすぎない。

I finally come to appreciate the cherry blossoms, i think i should now, since my stint in Japan is probably limited to until next year. my plan is to finish my Masters and stay until July 2007. If I don't find a husband by then, then it's bye bye Japan for me. From April 2007 up to this date, I would need to seek for either an employment or waste my money on a lifetime adventure.

I'm reading Murakami's "Kafka on the shore," and this novel gave me an idea to become a get-away to some far away countryside and try to live with only the basic necessities. With that, I think I need around ￥400,000 to survive for 4 months. Perhaps, I could earn that from sheer baito but I know that I also have to think about my future back in the Philippines.

However, I think that through this kind of nature communion, I could finally achieve a sense of maturity and get the most of Japan. And then, it's either US for me (better option) or go back home.

Well, that's all I can foresee right now.

-mG

 

Currently listening to: Sayounara daisuki na hito
Currently reading: Kafka on the shore by Haruki Murakami
Currently feeling: chipper

Last Sunday, I got to check my body fat percentage--it was a hair rasing 31%!! which is absolutely "YABAI" on the Japanese standards. And so I was determined to shed those unwanted kilos esp on the belly portion, which is now nothing short of disgusting.

Here's my gallant effort so far:

Sunday: Aquatic exercises and several laps for 90 min

Monday: 20 min. outdoor jogging, 2.5 km on the threadmill, belly exercises

Tuesday: 20 min. outdoor jogging

Wednesday: 25 laps on the pool for 45 min, 90 min badminton, 15 min basketball, belly exercises, Sauna for 15 min

Thursday: 20 laps on the pool for 30 min, 8 km walk

I'm exhausted!!

-mG 

Currently listening to: I know I need to be in love
Currently reading: Algorithmic Number Theory LNCS 2002

Romeo celebrated his 24th bday two days ago. It's typical and although we had moments alone together, I know that they're nothing special. And not only because he doesn't have feelings for me, or maybe thinking that I'm a weirdoo, but honestly, even I don't feel the spark anymore.

A lot of things happened and right now I'm just not ready to love again, and worse to love the same guy who once rejected me. He did, and inspite of being much, much, much nicer than Brian, overall, the fact remained that I once summoned all of my guts to tell him how I felt about him. And unlike Brian, I don't think he has enough reasons to reject me. Cause I know, and I'm really sure, that cannot deny to himself that he also liked me.

Well anyway, enough of that already. I'm sick of rekindling a kind of flame which is not even beneficial for everyone. Besides, Brian is not here anymore, who cares if I'm single? I may not be entirely noble with my intentions with Romeo--don't get me wrong, I also loved him. But part of that truth is that he's kinda handy on Brian-neurotic matters. Because he's the best proof of me getting over Brian. I don't have any choice, Brian is really one hell of a paranoid ol'man. If I show up with some average-looking guy or maybe a mongoloid-like Japanese, then definitely he'll still think that it's a cover-up. But with Romeo, he just folds up.

By the way, I committed a first-crime this April, I've written an entry which pertains to Brian. Of couse I'm avoiding any form of delusions and imaginations, yet being with Romeo for two straight days, oh God--forgive me, but I've just sinned again! I talk to him about Brian! I know, I sucked big time!!

-mG

Currently listening to: Eh Kase Bisaya by Yoyoy
Currently reading: Rational Points on Elliptic Curves by Silverman
Currently feeling: fat

Today, I'm the 2nd happiest person in the world! The first? Well, "Okusan" hands down, as long as she's still with the man I've pined for ever since I was 17. The only person I'll be willing trade in anything I have in my life, if only that sounds enough to entice her.

Nevertheless, I'm simply way overjoyed and words are not enough to describe the overflowing emotions. It's may appear as a trivial accomplishment but imagining the repercussions as well as the future opportunities, it seems as the most fitting feather in the cap. Because what is this about represents the 90% of the Filipino's dream.

I'll tell more about later.

-mG

 P.S. I don't know if this would destoy the fulfillment mode but yeah, could I be falling in love? Hmmmm, nah!!

Currently listening to: Tameme by Jolina

Update on the 10 things I want to accomplish before I leave Japan for good

(5^th edition) April 28, 2006/04/28

 

I’m now feeling that the clause for good is somehow like JK Rowling’s book or the movie version—it’s coming soon! If everything is as planned, I have just 11 months to finished all of these goals. But today, I just had the most amazing development. Read on:

 

10. MS Degree in UP – Dekita!

9. Childhood novel – I neither have the time nor the interest to continue writing about an illusion which just frustrates me the moment I’m reminded that it cannot be!

8. Ski like an expert – almost there! Maybe 3 more ski trips and I’ll be frigginly good!

7. Have a serious relationship with a foreigner – remove the word serious then this goal is in the bag.

6. Achieve 1級 Japanese Proficiency level – Prospects look dim given the time and volume of things to do in the upcoming months. I have a half mind to downgrade this to 2級. I had passed 3級 last year and failed by 12 points the practice exam.

5. Save at least 180万 – Looks dim considering my travel plans, apartment hunting, escalating bills, and the 3000\ cut from our monthly allowance.

4. Have 1 mathematical publication – Now, the only way for this to happen is to add the finishing touches on MS thesis and do some revisions, or wake up one day being really Galois-smart.

3. Get a US Visa, at least 1 year – Dekita! And more!!! I’ve got 10 years of multiple entries, and God knows that it made me the 2^nd happiest person in the world!

2. Conceive a kid – Well, at least I’m being a subtle whore right now. Who knows when the LaTeX will break? (jewk!)

1. Get married – To whom? No chance of that happening in the near future.

 

-mG 

Currently listening to: Californication by Red Hot
Currently reading: Tokyo Metropolitan Atlas
Currently feeling: content