*Finally, the song from Sky of Love
-salamat Eric

可是我 - 朱孝天

词:李焯雄歌:李伟菘

你是被打断的句子
无法成形的果实
可惜我早知道结局
却来不及去阻止
你的秘密说得如此的真实
但你我却像不认识
不过一个心跳的距离
但你的心却永远抱不紧
为了你我哭过痛过都不算什么
可是我告诉我你有没有在乎过
太多如果却又种不出的结果
好像朋友又比朋友多了一点什么
为了我你笑过吻过但你不快乐
可是我始终走不进你心里角落
太多如果却又种不出的结果
你有你的我有我的各自的寂寞
可是我
为了你

你是被打断的句子
无法成形的果实
可惜我早知道结局
却来不及去阻止
你的秘密说得如此的真实
但你我却像不认识
不过一个心跳的距离
但你的心却永远抱不紧
爲了你我哭過痛過都不算什麽
可是我告诉我你有没有在乎过
太多如果却又种不出的结果
好像朋友又比朋友多了一点什么
为了我你笑过吻过但你不快乐
可是我走不进你心里角落
太多如果却又种不出结果
你有你的我有我的各自的寂寞
可是我
为了你
可是我
为了你
为了你

你是被打断的句子
留下悬念的故事
可惜我早知道结局
却来不及去阻止

Roma-Ji

Ke Shi Wo (But Me)
by Ken Zhu

Ni Shi Bei Da Duan De Ju Zi
Wu Fa Chen Xin De Guo Shi
Ke Xi Wo Zhao Zhi Dao Jie Ju
Que Lai Bu Ji Qu Zu Zhi
Ni De Mi Mi Shuo De Ru Ci De Zhen Shi
Dan Ni Wo Que Xiang Bu Ren Shi
Bu Guo Yi Ge Xin Tiao De Ju Li
Dan Ni De Xin Que Yong Yuan Bao Bu Jing

Wei Le Ni Wo Ku Guo Tong Guo Dou Bu Suan She Me
Ke Shi Wo Gao Su Wo Ni You Mei You Zai Hu Guo
Tai Duo Ru Guo Que You Zhong Bu Chu De Jie Guo
Hao Xiang Peng You You Bi Peng You Duo Le Yi Dian She Me

Wei Le Wo Ni Xiao Guo Wen Guo Dan Ni Bu Kuai Le
Ke Shi Wo Shi Zhong Zuo Bu Jing Ni Xin Li Jiao Luo
Tai Duo Ru Guo Que You Zhong Bu Chu De Jie Guo
Ni You Ni De Wo You Wo De Ge Zhi De Ji Mo
Ke Shi Wo Wei Le Ni


English translation

You are a sentence that has been defeated
Fructification unable to admit (a life’s implicating story)
It’s a shame that I already know the ending
However it’s too late to prevent it

The authenticity of the way you tell your secret
However we still don’t know each other
Only a heart beat away
But your heart is forever hard to grasp

For you, I’ve cried, been hurt, but those were nothing
But I want to inform if we’ve ever cared about each other?
Too many ‘ifs’ gives a negative type of outcome
It seems friends has a bit more than the other
For me, you’ve laughed, kissed but you are not happy
But I can’t enter your heart’s knot (can’t enter your heart’s knot)
Too many ‘ifs’ gives a negative type of outcome
You have yours; I have mine, our individual loneliness

-mG

Currently listening to: Ke Shi Wo by Ken Zhu
Currently feeling: high

*get it!!

Looking For Juliet
02) Xun Zhao Zhu Li Ye

Feng lei dian Hun tun zhi chu di he tian
Wo yi ding wen guo ni de lian
Zai you yi shi yi qian

Mian dui mian Hong jiu hua guo ni she jian
Zai zhe xiao xiao de luu dian
Yu zhou hang kong mu jian
(Love is on fire)

Yu jian ni
Wo cai ming bai wo de ai qing bu ceng ran dian
Shuo you shi lian Dou wei le ni de chu xian
(Love is on fire)

Ni jiu shi Wo xun zhao de Zhu li ye
Wo ai ni zao zai wo men
Ren shi zhi qian Jiu yong yuan
Never gonna stop Never ever stop
Ain't gonna give you up

Bu pa mao xian
Wo you yong qi qu mian dui Zhi zhi dian dian
Never gonna stop Never ever stop
Ain't gonna give you up

Wo jue dui Bu hui tuo xie
Wo yao meng Dou shi xian

Yi sha jian Chuan qi jian tian he cong qian
Wo ren chu ni yan li yi lian Deng dai wo lai fa xian
Tou yi dian Qian nian bu dian yi fan yan
Gei wo yi kou ai de tian Jui zai ni she bian

-mG

Currently listening to: Looking for Juliet by Vaness Wu
Currently feeling: rejected

 Top this; just dare top this.

Guess what could happen with the most unassuming and harmless scenario? Perhaps, the phrase that "We will never know.." is most fitting to say.

So, I made my way for a humble dinner prepared by my friend Abby in her gorgeous flat. She is obviously more well-off than myself, and thereby can afford to subscribe to The Filipino Channel whereareas, I don't even own a second-hand TV here in Japan.

Probably I came at the perfect timing when the show is Maalala mo Kaya and it's about the life story of basketball player that i love to hate the most, yes, none other than Dannilo Idefonso, no.10, SMB!

I used to remember how I despised this person all because of the petty circumstance that the time he rose to fame coincides with the dwindle of the career of hmmi dare not mention anymore.

Well obviously I'm way more than over that person today. In fact, if you know who is on his way to hell then Mr i dare not mention anymore is probably centuries ago buried beneath the deepest portion of hyper hell.

Anyway, I was more than surprised with my reaction towards the Danny's story. The bitterness has been completely eradicated and although I have been accustomed on my criticisms, I remained more or less behaved and engulfed however triteness the story presents.

In the end, I was touched and even inspired. I figure out that Danny also got my ire not just because of the non-aforementioned character but also because of his sheer pompous attitude. This guy believes in himself so much and his confidence is truly trigger-angry.

Nevertheless,I have come to realize something about me, why I was plainly a loser.. That is because I believe that I am, that is I never pride myself of my achievements. Considering the fact of where I am right now, and where I came from, I have remained too modest for my own good.

Plus, I've had visions of totally giving up and abandon my Mathematics because I'm now wondering whether I am really for this field or not brought about my never-ending troubles with acquaintances in this field.

Danny's story has pinched a very sensitive nerve. It's not just because he continued to pursue his dreams despite whatever.. but also when I come to remember the time when I was in 2nd year college.

I was a struggling Mathematics major then. I'm not special in one way or another. I was the last person you will ever think of becoming a Mathematician. *pardon me, but from now on, that's how i will regard myself* Some might even find me stupid but you know what's strange. I hardly gave a damn about it. Well, until it get to the point when I aspire to prove something to myself.

Maybe, I was an A-Class b-ball player then, but somehow I also wanted to become a decent Mathematics student. That I found out to be easier said than done. Math is a difficult subject and that kind of project cannot be accomplished overnight. The more I study, the more frustrated I become when I see the results of my effort.

That's the point when I seek the help of God. I remember my exact words.  "Lord, make me suck less in math!!" In exchange, I would forget the aches of the Dannilo affair.

Of course, there's no magical moment when God tingled with my brain and develop the part for solving Math problems, but slowly I feel like getting the hang of the whole thing.  Unnoticeably too, I heeded to my promise and stop saying those lies and deregatorry remarks to Danny. I confessed that I even committed against the 10 commandments all because of my obscure hatred.

But that's all part of my childish past. I have grown up and I'm more mature now. It's just that it seems that I have forgotten about my beginnings.

Just tell me, who wouldn't feel the guilt upon being reminded of such a promise. Well, I'm sorry Lord if ever I took that fact for granted, but at least now I know what I shall do and pursue. My feet's also back in the ground. But most importantly, through all of these subtleties, I see a spark of hope up ahead.

Danny symbolizes the realization of God's promise. And since I've been mightily wishing something right now...  

-mG

Currently listening to: American Idiot by Greenday
Currently feeling: optimistic

Hikkoshi--what a painful word?

My friend Didith will be moving out of the dorm tomorrow; Sir Julius is returning to the Philippines within a week; a lot of others too..

 But what right do I have to demand anything from the world and disturb the natural order of things? They often call it inevitable and we have no other choice but to accept this as is.

Although the most difficult part is not the sheer acceptance but may lie somewhere or sometime in the future. I'va had scary visions of Romeo moving somewhere else and leaving me here. I don't know which is worse, for him to fall in love with me then leave me, or just leave without loving me at all?

These are the trying times when I can only drop down to my knees and ask God. I'm really sorry.. I've felt more pressured than ever, whence I am plainly indulging in such conducive state of our platonic relationship, is it?

I won't be denying the fact that every moment we're together and discussing sex without actually performing the act is more hurtful to my appetite than anything else I can imagine. But why it doesn't happen yet may be solely attributed to my very nature of shyness topped with awkwardness I present to the other party. So hope #1 is to change that. Romeo must feel at least comfortable whenever we're together.

Well, I have 1 full year before he will hikkoshi to a new flat or actually leave Japan for good. Oh Lord, give me the strength. I am sure there's more to Romeo than simply forgetting Fidel *it's no use concealing his name anymore. Just like what Harry Potter said, "the more I shun away from saying the name, the more afraid I become, the more powerful he becomes in my life*. I hope for a future with him==whatever means there may be.

-mG

Currently listening to: Pakisabi na lang by Aiza Seguerra
Currently reading: The Little Prince
Currently feeling: chipper

it's almost safe to assume that i've had a terrible time seeing that girl of  of Romeo.*he denied that she his girl but what's the use?*

of  course it's quite different from Marivic's case where i would be needing a respirator to get my system into normal function, but minus the degree of despondence, there seems to be a semblance or two. or maybe, it's just that my heart's so badly broken as before, or still..

 but whatever!!

that's why here is my LSS. i guess, i've been toying with that idea and would you actually believe that i kinda like it. but shrugs, i guess i need the necessary springs to cushion the blow. still, how sad and painful that Sir Julius is going away.. we did our rendition of the following song on his Karaoke Farewell Party:

If you love me, like you tell me... Please be careful with my heart
You can take it, just don't break it... Or my world will fall apart
You are my first romance... And I'm willing to take a chance
That till life is through... I'll still be loving you
I will be true to you... Just a promise from you will do
From the very start... Please be careful with my heart

I love you and you know I do... There'll be no one else for me
Promise I'll be always true... For the world and all to see
Love has hurt... some lies softly spoken
And I have had my heart badly broken...
I've been burned and I've been hurt before
So I know just how you feel... Trust my love is real for you
I'll be gentle with your heart... I'll caress it like the morning dew
I'll be right beside you forever... I wont let our world fall apart
From the very start... I'll be careful with your heart

You are my first ( and you are my last ) Romance...
And I'm willing to take ( ill make up a pact ) A chance...
That till life is through... I'll still be loving you
I will be true... ( I will be true ) To you
Just a promise from you... ( only to you ) will do
From the very start... ( from the very start )
From the very start... ( from the very start )
From the very start
Please be careful with... ( I'll be careful with... )
My ( your ) heart...

too bad, as i always say, "YAO BU SHI AI SHANG FIDEL!!"  *  As per rule, I would actually start saying his name from here on. Cause what'S actual the use of denying? huh!!

-mG

Currently listening to: Lonely day by Phantom Planet
Currently watching: Ngayong Nandito Ka
Currently feeling: lonely

 

Here is the most rudimentary theoretical algorithm in finding a boyfriend:

1.  INITIALIZATION: Set the standards then find the prospective boyfriend. While doing this, your main focus should be improving your personal life; including overall appearance, poise, manners, smile as well progress in your career/academic growth. This is guaranteed to reap  huge payoffs in the future.
2. ELIMINATE: Build a list of prospective boyfriends then from this list eliminate those under the following categories:
• Married, Taken, Committed -- unless of course if He's a Muslim
  
• Gays, Bi-sexuals -- they're not worth the effort. I am a Born Again Christian myself but I honestly believe that this tendency is absolutely irreversible.
  
• Your Bestfriend-- you two might be meant for each other but there is too much risks involved
• Jerks -- If this guy thinks that he's God's gift to women then don't dare waste your time on him
• Chinese and Blacks -- this is a personal bias!! haha
• Those whom you think you will have irreconcillable differences with!!
  
3. FINISHED? Does the prospective guy also has eyes for you. If yes, then STOP looking cause you already have a boyfriend!
4. ITERATE: If the prospective boyfriend does not feel the same way for you despite your gallant efforts of self-improvement then move to the next prospective guy. 'tsugi' Go back to Step 2
   

 

* Improvements in the above mentioned algorithm can ubiquitously found on magazines and other self-help books.

 ** All known algorithms in finding a boyfriend is in exponential or sub-exponential time.  It becomes increasingly difficult with time; worse, time becomes a function of itself! i.e. O(t)=√(lnt)^te

 -mG

Currently listening to: This guy's in love with you Pare by Parokya
Currently reading: Murder at the Orient Express by Agatha Christie
Currently feeling: cheerful