wala na'kong panahon, kaya gagawin ko na ito. bahala na kung masaktan na naman ako.. tatawid na'ko sa tulay. gusto ko talagang may magbago--pero hindi maiiwasang mag-alangan na baka maging hadlang sa kaukulang gulong ng tadhana. ngunit, kung pansamantalang ipansasantabi ang mumultuhing takot sa'king dibdib, matatantong maaring ito'y isang sangangdaan. kinakailangang piliin ang tamang landas. ngunit paano kung ito na ang aking huling pagkakataon. kung maari pang dagdagan ang listahan ng aking mga kahilingan sa poong Maykapal, gayong batid kong ako'y higit na pinagpala kaysa iba. siguro, siya't siya na rin ang aking pipiliin. subalit, kung ipagraramot po para sa mas maiigting na kadahilanan, akin pong tatanggaping maluwang sa'king kalooban. hayaan nyo na nga lang akong isagawa ang aking isinasapuso. kung di man ako pagpalain, hindi ko ipagdaramdam. itutuloy ko pa rin ang ilang buwan ko ng pinapangarap, walang mababago sa mga plano. sabi nga sa Ingles, (wala akong maiisip na mas magandang parirala) Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there! tuloy ang laban, hindi na'ko susuko. -mG

Currently listening to: The way you look at me
Currently reading: The Arithmetic of Elliptic Curves

i'm so busy, lately. I got my first online assigment, i guess, it's pretty much confirmed, I have a chance (take note, i'm still careful here) that I'm going to Japan this October.

However, no sooner did I realize to celebrate when i received a mail that I need to take some sort of a remedial class, review on my own so I can catch up when i arrive there.

i swear, i haven't worked this hard, and I know i should swift up this entry. Imagine, i have to answer all exercise on GTM 138!!! i'm really having a hard time, and the only thing's keeping me sane is the fact that i'm aware that i have so much brain cells to burn.

but even if it's no picnic, i still Thank God that at least it's Number Theory. cause if it's something else, I'm sure to give up and let go.

anyway, i'm just dawdling and relaxing.

gtg!


-mG

i'm such a loser. still here tinkering with C-langauge that i cannot even comprehend. and besides that i still have to learn another language--the real one.

My japanese name is 藤原 Fujiwara (wisteria fields) 歩 Ayumi (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).
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-mG

I feel like William Hung: "I can't concentrate!" "I don't wanna do this anymore. Give me my back pack back!" -mG

something weird happened today. i guess, it simply reminds me to appreciate the finer things in life. remember the time when i was still scrounging to make my first measly web page? it sucks but at least i felt happy then. right now, everything seems to be complicated, the way i seem to rushed off my life, the way i lose myself to the emptiness of the draining workloads. (imagine, i'm teaching 10 units -- that is 10 hours per week, 2 hours per day! and i found myself cutting classes and dawdling in the brink of emptiness. i'm beginning to feel the drain of the moment. you know, when you are expecting something to happen and then it did, and finally it sinks in scaring you out of your wits. this sucks! well, maybe it does, it's just a matter of accepting whatever tomorrow brings. gotta go! -mG